haaiihh...sudah la tu....!!!

mase ade tak nak dihargai...tp bile dh xde mula la...merayu la...ape la...

actually aku nk tutup sejarah antara aku ngn dye nie...letih la...asyik kena main jew...dulu sebelom dpt bukan main lg sume manis....tp lame2...aku sedar yg dye nie bukan bagi sepenuh hati dye kat aku pown....

ok uollss...si dye nie bkn nye my encik HADI k....org yg i nk story nie biarla i bg nickname dye je SOULOFICE...suka hati uolls la nk ckp i nie player ke ape ke...tp i mmg ramai kawan lelaki...

ok...1st i kenal dye dari friendster...dye add i...then kenal2...reply text...kebetulan umah pown dekat2...tp sumenya kebetulan la...tapi mase mula2 nie i tak berape nk layan dye coz i dah ade bf...and kitorg lost contact cmtu je....

after few years bru i contact dye balik...kat ym...i tegur dye...then add fb dye..hurrmm...dye still ingt i lagi...then kitorg get close blik...sampai la...dye dtg jumpa i for the 1st time kat umah...then always jumpa...spent time together...tiba2...i dpt taw yg dye ade gurl lain...tp i diamkan..i stalk gurl tu...i stalk from friendster..mmg dye ade friend dgn ejal nie...then i dpt email dye...i add dye kat fb...then gurl tu approve...start dr situ sume benda t'bongkar...mmg gurl tu awek dye...

mmg rase tertipu...tak sampai brape minit...dye ym i...ckp jgn kcau gurl tu...dye ckp yg dye syg gurl tu...mmg hancur gilew la ht nie kan...ok im back off....x sampai bape hari dye cari i balik...merayu kat i...ok...i bg dye peluang utk dye explain...dye ckp dye dgn gurl tu xde mase dpn la..whatever la...ok fine...sbb syg...i terima dye balik...i bg taw dye yg i tak akn terima dye buat kali kedua pasnie...so pepaham la kan...

then kali kedua...tiba2 dye text i ckp dye kat kuantan ade job and nak tenangkan fikiran...mase nie i dh kurg percaya kat dye...bpe hari dye diam...i biarkan jew...suddenly dye text i...dye kate dye nak kawen....ya Allah...i teruji lagi dgn dye...ape yg dye nak sbnrnye dari i...actually i taw dye dgn sape kat kuantan tu...tp i biarkan jew...i nk tgk permainan dye......i tak nak lg dgr penjelasan dye...mmg hati i dh t'tutup...

few days later dye dtg lg cari i....and buat kali kedua i maafkan dye...kali nie dye berubah....i pown tak taw kenape...and relationship ktorg ok...sampai la...bln march yg lps...and terjadi lg benda yg same kat i...dye post dkt wall ex dye say RINDU....what the hell....!!! again and again...i dh taw psl gurl nie dh lme...slalu comment kat wall dye...dye baru jew text i ckp rindu...suddenly dye post kat gurl tu cmtu jugak....hati gurl mane yg x sakit kan....

kali nie i nekad....i will never forgive you...!!! mungkin i boleh maafkan dye...tp utk terima dye lg...SORRY...hati i dh tertutup utk dye...dye masih cari i....tp hati i nekad utk tak terima dye....biar la...i rase gurl tu lbih baik dr i....i dh mls nak main rebut2 nie...i x kisah la dye text i mcm2...say rindu ke...last msg dye bru tgh hr td...dye cakap kat i "congrate u dh jmpe laki lbih baik"...hurrmmm...ape2 je la...


i citer nie bkn nak bukak pekung di dada or nk malukan dye...tapi...cukup la...i dah penat maafkan dye...tak payah la terus ckp rindu ke ape...coz i know it's means nothing to him...it's just a word...


TO HIM: u i'm so sorry...i have to do this...i know dye lebih baik dari i....mungkin i gurl yg faham u yg boleh accept u for what u have being....tapi i rase dye lebih faham u....dye akan terima diri u lebih dari i even u ckp u dgn dye xde ape2...ape yg u ckp tak sama dgn ape yg u buat....i dh letih...lagi i diam lagi sakit hati i..mata i...i akn anggap u sebagai kawan je...i tak nak kita saling sakitkan hati msg2...selama kita knl u tak pernah anggap i mcm ape i anggap u kan...so better i back off now....hope u happy dgn sape2 pun pilihan u...i dh maafkan u...